so follow your bliss

havent updated in awhile

2009-09-03T04:20:18Z

lotta good things goin on..today i had my first casino experience and lost hundreds and hundred of dollars, talk about addicting..mike and i made one year and went on a lunch cruise around the hudson, it was beautiful. Ayumi has been in the US visiting for 3 weeks. Me crystal and Ayse visited her in NYC for dinner. I can't believe those 6 years went by so fast.. reminds me of how things change so fast. School starts in 6 days and I am very excited. I was definitely having second thoughts about the commuting but realized the positives out weigh the negatives. Besides, I'll be visiting my friends a lot anyway and staying over some nights. I'm taking some very cool classes and get my referral this week to find out where i'm doing my internship. Hopefully it is close to home and in a good neighborhood. Just bought my first 3 books at a hundred dollars a pop. I remember my freshman year when 300 dollars bought a whole semester worth of books!

mini update

2009-06-09T04:06:13Z

3 jobs now down to 2. Once i get up enough guts IM gunna quit pump it up and now i gotta find another job for the school year.
getting tattoo fixed next week
summer class is awesome, automatic A's for everyone
free spray tomorrow!
internship in september, wonder where im gunna go, hope its paid :)
but for now, everythings peachy. i just wish it wasnt gunna rain all week and i could go down the shoreeee

xloserkid @ 2009-04-05T21:20:00

2009-04-06T01:22:53Z

people are so damn two -faced, we all see right thru you..but anyhow, my birthday was fine i worked all day, then my family came over for dinner and cake. mike gave me the cutest gift ever, loveeehim<3

everythings going well

2009-03-26T01:02:28Z

my birthday is in 10 ten days
i get wait to get my new phone in 14 days
i had a job interview today for the summer, and got the job on the spot, pretty damn sweet
happy birthday to sho sho baby very soon
i have to take 17 credits next semester, boo
i chopped my hair off
umm i think thats about it.. back to school tomorrow morning, yuck!

..

2009-03-13T03:14:13Z

i wanna vent so bad

but i cant

just cant wait til schools over..

i lovee being wide awake

2009-02-03T06:44:11Z

super bored, we just came in from playing basketball in the snow in sweatshirts..it was freezing..we dressed up like these characters cause we were so bored. its suppose to snow like 3 inches..i have class form 2-715 tomorrow veddy niiiiice.
superbowl is always lame so i didnt expect it to be such a big hype.
my laptop is gunna die maybe its a sign i gotta get some sleep.
i love when people get along, but sometimes things dont work out as planned.
i started writing this paper today for human behavior and i started crying. it was about our childhood and personal experiences. maybe ill post bits and pieces on here..we'll see.
can;t wait for friday, big group of us are going laser tagging in wantage that should be fun as helllll.
CANNOT WAIT for valentines. mikes momma made reservations at a restaurant and theyre not telling me and ill be blindfolded. so that should be an awesome time. i love that man to death and nothing is stopping me from doing what im doing.
and to be quite honest, idc what people think, im not gunna waste my time and money anymore doing stupid stuff to find out the real me.
so i will end it on that note :) goodnight!

2009

2009-01-01T04:50:05Z

new years is such a bogus 'holiday' if you don't drink
but happy new year.
and before i die, i willlll watch the ball drop in the city

summer camp

2008-06-30T00:07:58Z

so work starts tomorrow. i've been so rediculously busy. i had to set up for work thursday and friday. i didnt go to sleep last night. i'm getting really sick. i have a doctors apt tomorrow. i've been feeling down in the dumps. i work 9 to 5 this week. takes just about an hr to get there which means i need to wake up mad early. not diggin it but a job is a job.

i will possess your heart

2008-06-23T04:01:06Z

soo content where I am in life right now. Definately a plus. :)

Juno 13

2008-06-13T19:03:55Z

Happy Birthday. I miss you...

sunday.

2008-04-13T21:35:00Z

41 hours. i wanna be home more than anything. i dont wanna be at kean...but i will remain positive..everything will be okay..i cant say it enough
...everything will be okay

spring semester 08

2008-01-28T23:55:22Z

i love going to class, i know it sounds weird. i've met soo many new people already. my teachers are awesome. this cant get any betterr<333

+, -

2007-12-20T20:19:38Z

and so i failed reading. wtf. second upset of the week once i thought things couldnt get any worse. i move out tomorrow, good time for a break, but im gunna go crazy not seeing everybody..city with my girls is gunna be ballin. oh and we're already planning wildwood 08 holllllah.

1st semester

2007-12-19T01:40:25Z

this semester has been a huge roller coaster..i didnt plan to come to college and fall in love. its hard. ive never cried for this long in awhile. i'm willing to drive an hour and a half to see you. i never want to this leave place, this hall, this floor, and this room. over the winter break im gunna miss seeing the same old faces 15 times a day. i really really dont wanna leave. this is so hard. on the flip side, ive never grown so much in so little time. i like it.

collegeee

2007-09-08T17:18:11Z

i love school to be quite honest. shewitas amazing =] the room is huge for the both of us, we only share a bathroom with one other girl who is never there except from like 2am-9am. our floor is madd chill. the food is so good haha. ive only had one class so far but it seems soo easy.im home for the weekend and my laptop still has not come in yet. ive been really sick to top off the whole college experience. 102 fevers and the whole 9 yards, back and forth from the nurses office and doctors office, but i got some strong medicine so i hope i get better so i can drinkkkkk. thats it for nooww<33

xloserkid @ 2007-05-02T20:19:00

2007-05-03T00:24:01Z

i just like how things finally fall into place. its about time. today i went to the lacrosse game with sam and it was nice to talk to her for awhile just the two of us. we played montville and max and matt were playing. we won. i'm going down the shore with everyone from montville after their prom next weekend. pluss im going down the shore this weekend to bond with someone and try to patch things back together since its been gettin a little outta hand lately. prom is so far away. i should really get the tickets soon. wildwood- hotel- 2 rooms- 2 blocks away from diamond crest which is everyone elses hotel. so big party. cant wait. and college, cant wait for that either. already started talking to people who will be freshman next year, we are all so stoked. but im tired. and i have homework to finish. peacceee.

LADIES - DRAMA - LEAVE IT AT HOMEEE!

2007-04-25T05:51:53Z

havent updated in awhile but i cant get over how emotionally drained today was. and to top it off i was dropping kerry off at home and when we were passing chilton the ambulance was in front of me and all i could see was a hopeless old man so motionless. i couldnt help but cry cause it felt like just yesterday i went through that with my gpa and i want my childhood back.

and spring break is nothing special just yet
buuut will get heated up saturday night =]

things to look forward to

2007-04-03T02:10:13Z

-birthday in dos days
-bellybutton pierced on thursday =]
-farrahs bdays tomorrow
-jessies is on thursday
-good friday
-then crystals bday
-we really wanna go to funplex now! east hanover instead of the shore
-new license
-then easterrr
-then eventually spring break!
&& if i find out who is startin the rumors, it will be trouuublee. cause it always gets ME into trouble and i didnt even do anything. ooo weekend drama HATE IT. =]

graduation soon. holy cow. THANK GOOOODDD

schools almost over

2007-03-18T04:53:20Z

another weekend almost over.

another party busted.

actually make that 3 that i have gone to in the past 2 weeks.

flossssinn =]

littleshop

update.

2007-03-14T03:07:30Z

so i started the school year off on the right foot and it went downhill since the middle of february. i THINK things are getting better but once i say that more drama happens. and why all of a sudden the school revolving around us. no one should care. i do enjoy kean very much tho.i was there all day. i even took pictures. i cant wait to make that my second home. but for now, high school is a mess. my life is a mess. i dont know what i want. all i know is i gotta hotel for prom 8-) and i cant wait.

xloserkid @ 2007-02-21T19:15:00

2007-02-22T00:17:11Z

i love you, i really do.
everything is so good right now.
especially free pancake day at ihop mmmmm

xloserkid @ 2007-02-19T17:37:00

2007-02-19T22:40:35Z

WHAT DID I DO. i never want to hurt you. youre the best thing that has ever happened to me and i cant see us ever apart.

HEY SHEWITA GLAD YOURE ALIVE=]!
last night was good. Six people. hahahhaha i broke i record. damn.

woooww.

2007-01-27T04:45:38Z

life is good. i havent updated in awhile, but today i went to work and when i got home there was a package waiting for me..i opened up it was a build a bear and when you press the hand it said cara will you go to prom with me and there was a little note from scott. so now i have a dateeee. it was probably the cutest thing ever..then crystal me and zain went to abdullahs house and smoked hookah for about 2 hours just chillen smokin wit his mom haha..then i went home ate dinner went to ihop saw scott for a little..met up with brian and shewita then abdullah took us all to the hookah bar in paterson it was sooo chill..highly recommend it. now im home and crazy bored. things always work out in my favor. good shit. tomorrow= tanning, basketball games, booking the hotel for prom then out to eat. call me up sons if you wanna chill. <333

xloserkid @ 2007-01-06T16:03:00

2007-01-06T21:23:49Z

yesterday after school i made a pit stop home before i went to the girls basketball game. my mom told me to get the mail and inside was the kean acceptance letter. thats all i really care about. my night was splendid. all night and this morning ive been looking for shore houses/hotels for prom and i think ive found the one. Starlight Motel in Ortley Beach. http://www.starlightmotel.com/ its not a dump either and its fairly cheap. one room can sleep up to six people. its five minutes from seaside & the boardwalk. and if you really wanna stay somewhere book your hotel now. my dream would have all my friends in one hotel but i doubt that would ever happen. so get money and reserve the rooms asap. and prom is at the knoll country club. (http://www.knollcc.com/index.htm) definatly not paying for a limo to take me 10 minutes to prom hah.

bored and tired.

2007-01-01T06:52:20Z

i think 2007 will be a whole lot better. i can feel it. i dont like how 2006 ended. im really upset in myself. but i cant go back and change it..off to a fresh start.
and i cant wait for prom seriously. it WILL be amazing. and im already looking at shore houses hahah i wanna go to the beach so bad. i actually almost went down two nights ago. yeah thats it i need sleep. goodnight <3333